Caring for Early Career Clinicians - Do You Remember Your First Day on the Job?

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I still remember how scared I felt my first day of work as a new attending. I showed up to work nearly shaking, uncertain about where to go and what exactly to do. I remember introducing myself as the pediatrician, something I had done countless times before, and realizing that this was the first time I would be the only physician to see them at day. I was the one in charge and responsible for their child's well-being. The weight of that responsibility felt like a pit in my stomach.

I went through the motions that day, praying I didn't miss anything, checking and double checking every lab, every weight, and every part of my exam. I am still so grateful for the attending I worked with, who was kind and gracious and answered all my questions with great patience. Even though everyone had told me the transition to being an attending was challenging, I felt totally unprepared for what it would feel like.

Being in our early career is a uniquely challenging time. While residency provided good clinical training, I wish my medical training equipped me emotionally for the impact this first year would have- the hours of self doubt, imposter phenomena, the paralyzing fear of making mistakes. I desperately wished that it was normal to talk about these things at work, to share my most vulnerable fears and worries, Ultimately, I wish this transition was given the same importance, mentorship and support as every other transition in our career.

What was your first day of work like? What did you wish you knew? Let us know- we'd love to hear from you.

With love and gratitude,

Anu & Laura